19 October 2005
Love Me For What I Am
I Am Beautiful..
No Matter What They Say…
Coz Words Can’t Bring Me Down..
This song “Beautiful Life”kept replaying in my brain since I heard it while I was running on the treadmill..
I was thinking back on what I had encountered throughout my 19years..
I was insulted and laughed at since young..
I was a fat and bespectacled girl who cannot even pronounced words properly then..
People called me all kind of names..the most famous one is “Rambo Pig”..
Due to anger, I had changed myself for a better(cut hair, wear contact and go on a diet)..
Those kind of names had left me..
However, backstabbers come into my life..
I remember that I lost a group of friends during sec sch time..
I always wondered why and finally found out that actually it was the doing of my good friend..
I was disappointed but it made me realized how weak our friendship are..
I was bullied by all my Exs..except the present one..
I still remember how my 3rd Ex went around spreading that “I am a loose girl that took drug!”
At that point of my life, there were many questionings from my friends and harassment from outsiders.. My friend almost fought with him over this too…
Even till now, backstabbers are still around telling tales about me..
I have no idea on what intention they have…
I have certainly had not done anything to them but what made they wanted to backstab me..
I certainly have no idea..
Who like to be hated and backstabbed???
Have this people put myself in their shoes???
I thought backstabbing is a very bitchy thing to do but guys do it too..
I just hope everyone I know will stop believing those tales..
Pardon me if sometime I would talk rubbish and indirectly insulted anyone of u..
I don’t meant it..u noe sometime “Mouth act faster than brain”..
I hope people will like me the way I am..