I was suffering mild depression I guess for the past few days.. Crying. Flashbacks. Even to the extent, that I hurting myself.. And almost bring myself down to a horrible stage.. I was full of hatred. Anger. So angry of myself.. Why cant i juz let go and move on!
My heart felt so heavy and tired.
Ppl said,"coz u dun want to let go.." No!I want to let go but I dunno how to... Stressed.
I just want to be HAPPY.
Some people know and got angry to see me in this stage. Even Kelvin. He wanted to help me. Seriously, is not his fault anymore..is ME. But nobody knows how i feel. All people do is BLAME LAI BLAME QU. That why I prefer to keep it to myself.
But something happened.. I realised no matter what i do to hurt myself..I still won't be able to get over.. Only MYSELF.
When I was home, watching tv.. When it is commercial time, I saw Richie Ren sang "bu shi ni de, jiu bei zai mian qiang.." Then I woke up. I recalled all the lyrics and it seemed to be telling me to wake up..
Now.. I feel more relaxed. There is so many things I want to do..
First, VIN u are wanted!I want to learn drumming!!!!!!! Second, I want to go try out the Garagebattle..some singing battle.. Third, I want to drive really well and get their bloody license.. Fourth, learn dancing.. Fifth, Got to exercise and get my shape back..
Sixth...hmmm...Start reading book? I dun read book..but I shall start.. Read 2chapts plus 2day..usually 1 chapt and go ZZzzzzzzz liao..
Not bad Regina.
And finally Seventh, wait for my MR.Right to come.. No need to be good looking..presentable and medium build.. No need super tall..1.7m will do.. But most importantly, some one whom I can communicate, share my thoughts, gimme opinion.. Of coz, not a jealous man and some one who treasure kinship like me!
*Cross my finger*
Kura Princess ^_^
23 Jan 1986
A Typical Aquarius
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